Love

Here we are again
I am at your side
I help you keep going
I don’t know how


I try so hard
But you just don’t care
Your addictions are too important
Their pull is too strong


You love them
But I love you
They take you away from me
I’m left alone


If only you could see
Just how much I need you
All the nights I’ve cried for you
Everything I’ve missed for you


I wish you could get well
I wish I could help you
I just want more time
Just a little


Remember that day?
The last time?
I loved that day
You never realized it


I cannot leave you
Though I wish I could
I will be here for you
Being taken advantage of


Because this is love
And I cannot fight it

I Remember..

I remember the carelessness
brought with summer
I remember laughing
laughing like I never had

I remember the fights
and I regret them
I remember the things I said
if only I could take them back

I remember that day
when we first knew
I remember being skeptic
now I don’t know why

I remember the way his voice was
the way he said it
I remember him perfectly
his lips, his eyes, his skin

I remember the last time
when he was slipping away
I remember crying
so much crying

But now I just remember us
I remember our life
it was perfect, crazy and perfect
That’s all I want to remember

Journal Entry

Stan #11

I hope you get a chance to read this letter. I hope it helps to change your mind. I need your forgiveness. I can’t live another day knowing that you still hate me. I promise I never wanted to hurt you. You are my entire life, everything good anyway. I know I wasn’t there but please understand that I’ll do anything to make up for that. I know how badly you needed me and I wish that I could have been there for you. Honestly, I don’t know why I wasn’t. I guess I was just stupid and selfish. I thought that these addictions were more important than you. That was the biggest mistake of my life.

I am so sorry for all the times you cried over me. I always hated seeing you cry and knowing that you are crying because of me hurts more than I can say. You never deserved anything I put you through. Some days I wish that we hadn’t met and fallen so deeply in love. Not because I didn’t love every moment that we had together but because I think that maybe it wasn’t worth all the pain I’ve caused you. You could have been happy. You could have had a good, easy life. A life without me. But I can’t imagine a life without you. I just want you to know that I love you more now than I ever have. Looking back I can see how much you did for me and everything you suffered through. You truly are perfect.

I love you with all my heart. I will always love you even if you can't love me. I pray every night for your forgiveness. Please remember that. I hope I hear back from you but I understand if you don't want anything to do with me.

With all my love,
Stanley

Impulse 2

Girl: Why did you bring me here?
Boy: I thought you liked it here?
Girl: Well, I do.
Boy: Than what is the problem?
Girl: You just should have asked me if I wanted to come here.
Boy: Oh.. Sorry. Do you want to leave?
Girl: No. If you want to be here that’s okay.
Boy: Well I don’t want you to be mad.
Girl: My mood doesn’t depend on where we are.
Boy: What does it depend on then?
Girl: Nothing. It doesn’t matter.
Boy: It does matter. I don’t want to be with someone that isn’t happy.
Girl: I am. Just not all the time.
Boy: You used to be.
Girl: ...What does that mean?
Boy: I’m just saying that we used to be happy. We used to be perfect.
Girl: We still are perfect.
Boy: No, we aren’t. We fight all the time. We don’t even spend time together except when we have to.
Girl: What... What are you saying?
Boy: I’m just saying that maybe this isn’t working out.
Girl: Are you serious?
Boy: (In a hushed, ashamed voice) Yes.
Girl: You told me you loved me. You asked me to marry you!
Boy: We were so young. We didn’t really love each other.
(She is crying)
Boy: Look, we’ve been trying to make this work for so long. We clearly aren’t meant to be together.
Girl: You are throwing everything away! Why? Tell me why!
Boy: I told you. We aren’t meant t-
Girl: No! What is the real reason?
Boy: You don’t want to know.
Girl: Tell me right now.
Boy: Fine! You are too emotional. I can’t even stand to be around you anymore. You get mad over the littlest things and you complain about every stupid thing that happens to you. I’m sick of listening to it all day.
Girl: I... How... I... I’m sorry.
Boy: I’ll help you move your stuff out.
Girl: (quietly) ...Okay.
(She leaves crying)